Sixteen Again

oh how i wish could be 16 again

to start over anew

to be all that i ever could be

to make my dreams come true

Colorless

you must not be from around here

you are colorless

demon inside

you anger the demon inside me
this one i hold so deeply

you make me love the rage

you can only back me
into a corner for so long

before i wreck the cage

All You Wanted

when the world leaves you all alone

and the seeds you sow never grow

when everything around you falls apart

and no one's there to soothe your heart

all you wanted

when you look back to all the times

you lived life for your ego, lived life blind

when you look back to everything you once knew

just remember who chose to walk away

it was you

Tides

the grass is always greener on the other side

but i just need you here to make it feel alright

believe i need you here to smoothly sail these tides...

Void

a man of many words-
all void;
meaningless to truth.
he says what he wants,
gets his way,
says he knows you
better than you do!

Loveless Man

to the naive heart
that must break next
to play his part~

give her eyes to be
a lot less blind
to really see~

underneath the mask
lies an ugly,
loveless man

Unfortunate

if only she knew

... the truth ...

maybe one day

... she'll see ...

behind the rose colored glass

*is someone who will never see

*she's someone she will never be

maybe one day

she'll see

Heir of Heart

how do i explain to you

the world's cold hard truth?

we were never meant to be

part of that family

you will become someone strong

someone who lives on

i know because you will be

someone just like me

Pages

pages unwritten

but life is so short

will i fill the pages 

before my time ends?

everything happens

it keeps on moving;

to follow the current

or stay on my path?

quest of solitude

i know you so well

release expectation

remember purpose

you were born lonely

you were born to love
you were born to lose all
but born to survive

you were born to hurt
to write your story
and to see the colors
to fill the pages

Dream Spoken

hiding in the closet
afraid he will blast me
all i wanted was love
not life flashing past me

an angel says to me
"leave before it's too late-
go, you shouldn't stay here
life is too short to wait"

Forever Unwritten

millions
infinity
I wanted one

one-side
insanity
unwritten dreams

unknown
obscurity
forget my name

Reminder

just give up, let go

(he never wanted to know you anyway)

just forget, get gone

(it's what you do best, move on, and run away)

In Me

the lover in me

would give you my all

to build you a world

that would never fall

the giver in me

would give you my life

to take care of yours

to be a good wife

the woman in me

would brighten your day

would depend on you

and i would not stray

the healer in me
would lift up your soul
would give you those smiles
beyond your control

the thinker in me
would never forget
what i envision
and my past regret

the fighter in me

will never let go

of those i hold dear
and the life i know

the dreamer in me
imagines the best
searching for feeling
on my lonely quest

the child in me
will one day grow tall
will one day know love
will one day have all

Daddy Don't Love

daddy don't love

i don't know love 

i asked god for a chance

because i want a change

it's lonely where i am

it's clouded in my brain

daddy don't love

so i don't know love

(c) 2011

Renewable Heart

silence your heart

conceal it

take it back
don't reveal it

hold the contents
keep it warm

don't lose it
throughout the storm

survive the rough

take it all

as it comes
and as you fall

one day you'll be
beautiful

you'll be loved
renewable

Blank: The Story Will Continue

you were born to hurt

to write your story
to see the colors
to fill the pages

Boo

best friends from the start

so close in the soul

yet born far apart

<3

i hope you can forgive me.

Misunderstood

misunderstood

as the sky night

a man in black

just seeking light

finding his way

coming around

maybe someday

he will be found

Inevitable

it's now clear

you won't fight

without fear

for what's right

such a shame

couldn't you

'fend my name

for what's true

do you see

what you've done

completely

made me gone

never tried

to make it

must've lied

and faked it

she is dancing away now...

Wow~

People can be cruel. In many ways. Even when we think we love someone, we may be hurting them. Sometimes it's just best to let go of the people that hurt you. Sometimes it's best to start new. Well, I'm tired of everyone. Every person leads to attachment, which leads to suffering. Best way to take a break from it all for awhile? Disappear! Enjoy the world. Live a little. Try not to get feelings involved! Just... take a minute to stop thinking.

Never-Ending Warrior

can't you see

Words

words set in stone

can never be erased

can never be traced

drifting into the unknown

words like a fire

can never be named

can never be tamed

falling from a desire

lost in the wind

it carries me away

Wake Up Call

what if i died that night

would you have shed a tear?

i almost lost my light

just so i'd be near

what if you lost me then?

would you have lost your sleep?

i almost left you when

the control i couldn't keep

how can you be so mean

when you nearly lost me?

when I was stuck between

life and death, honestly...

june 18, 2016 10:30

Every Moment

every moment i've spent
running to you
yet you don't see
you're blind

if i count the miles
one thousand,
two thousand
enough to see the world
but instead I saw you

every moment i've spent
punishing myself
for being so easy
i'm naive

but with good intention
i wanted more
i wanted life
i desired the best of you
and that of me too

every moment i've spent
thinking of you
working to see you
dreaming in my mind

but do you think of me?
when you're living life
when you're far from reach
at times I wonder
does it even feel real?

every moment i've spent
trying to look in your eyes
but you turn away
and let the moments pass

can you see me?
when i'm right there
when i'm calling your name?
sometimes I feel
invisible to you

23

my foot branded with the number 23

how strange to feel so foreign

to my own soul, my own body

Today

today

first, a happy day

full sleep

lovely day in may

hair brushed

and soft to the touch

wanted

to show you how much

i cared

waiting for your call

waited

to tell you it all

time passed

hours went away

you rang

and you called to say

today 

maybe not today

tonight?

there's no other way

sorry

something else to do

better

than my time with you

Love Like Me

if you loved like me

you'd love with all your heart

if you cared like me

we'd never be apart

if you felt like me

we'd be forever strong

if you thought like me

we wouldn't wait so long

Make Moments Last

you are so special;

everything to me!

and you work so hard

but if you could see...

life goes by so fast

when you work all day-

make good moments last,

don't waste them away!

<3

Goodbye Guitar Girl

Does she play better than me?
Does she play it with her soul?
Does she play it with her heart?
Does she play to lose control?

Would she love better than me?
Would she love with no reserve?
Would she love you with everything
That you know you don't deserve?

Requital

intrudes a danger;

wicked arranger

comes into my world

makes me the stranger

Two Swords

Here
Two Swords
Two Choices

Think

Which One
You Decide

Live
Renew
Continue

Die
Regret
Suicide

Time Ticks Away

time ticks away

it goes by fast

you lose your grip

you want it to last

but life has forces

you can't control

you give and you take

it won't slow it's roll

when life brings you down

what can you do?

you look at photos

of the life you knew

you know it well

you cannot repair

the love and care

that once was there

Moments Lost Through Time

Moments Lost Through Time

Stop: Hit Rewind

Can't Go Back Now

Leave It Behind

Thoughts Still Remain

Of Younger Days

And Time Wasted

In Blurry Haze

Love Still Lingers

But Like Fine Sand

Slips Through Fingers

Scatters The Land

Back To Before

The Beginning

When There Was More

Than Life Spinning

Back To Before

A Time Less Dark

When Thoughts Were Pure

When There Was Spark

Distant Love

A shame you can't feel

All things that can be

What I know is real And what I can see...

A shame you can't cry

Not since you were small

A man cold inside

Your feelings made dull

How can you love me?

When it's just a choice?

How can you feel me?

You can't without voice!

And how could you know?

When I need your touch?

I need it so much!

You can't understand

And how can you leave?

Without a real kiss?

How can I believe that you'd really miss?

Time passes by fast

And it's never slow

So what if I passed?

Would you really know?

Familiar, but strange

This feeling takes me

Pure insanity!

Yet feels so deranged

How can I love you

When you don't know me?

How can I be you

When you can't be me?

How can I feel free?

When you wouldn't hear

My whole life's story

And what brought me here!

You say I'm family

But can I be me?

When you refuse to see

What's important to me...

Love Takes Two

the quest for family

a man to hold

someone to see with

the new and old

the quest for love

a love that still stands

with every blow

and to hold a hand...

they say if you want to

just "go out and get it"

but it takes two to love

and takes two to commit!

so when dreams take two

two hearts, two souls

what can I do

to finish these goals?

Dream Deja Vu

Buses - everywhere. Leading to: nowhere. For someone with no path; Any one will take you there!

New Beginnings

By your side
Again I feel
A wild ride
Seems unreal

Questions unanswered
aren't as they appear
makes me wonder
where to go from here