Tuesday, August 30, 2022

If I Could, I Would



If I could manifest someone to love me 

So I would...

This lonely heart has been waiting for so long.

I almost don't even know what it feels to be human anymore.


No one Knows me but Creator


I'm like a dead battery

Or a flower that's dried out

Even down to the roots

& the very core of me

I am starved


I once thought I was a seed to something great

But some days I feel as a rotten fruit

Doomed to be cut down

Incapable of change


& Never able to finish anything I have ever started in my life.


For how can you learn to finish anything in life


When you never learned how to begin?

Monday, July 25, 2022

Someone I'll Never Be




 It's so hard wanting to be (good) ... something I will never be.


It's hard knowing what's right in a world where most don't know truth.


I know my heart and I know what I wanted...


What I wanted is like a dream of a past life when this world is so different.


It is nothing how I imagined this life to be.

Sunday, June 26, 2022

My Last Quarter

 


i'd use my last quarter to write you a letter

but you used yours to write someone better

Monday, June 20, 2022

Fair Neighbor



goodbye, fair neighbor
although i loved you so
just like the seasons change
the tides, they come and go

goodbye, fair neighbor
although i felt that spark
and imagined us something
more like a card at hallmark

goodbye, fair neighbor
although i saw the future
our last moment spent together
undoing past lives' sutures

goodbye fair neighbor,
although we may meet again
somewhere between now and then
in a far off distant land



assalam alaikom wa rahmatullahi wa barakatu