I Am, Forgiving

I Forgive Them

 

For when they have taken my shirt, I have given them also my under garments.

When they robbed me of my innocence, I gave unto them also my jar's honey.

& When they have emptied my belly, unto them still has gone my money.

My Love, Myself

 

Dear My Love Myself,

If I could go back in time to be your hero, I would.
I'd save you from all the liars in the world, that your
naive heart ever believed. I'd save you from all the
villains that caused violence to your heart and I'd
even save you from myself. From the parts of me
you would have never thought could ever be me.

Dear My Love Myself,

For the sake of that little girl heart that still fights.
I have to chosen forgive all transgressors who have
cut me from my path, left me naked, bruised me,
and shamed me from my innocence. I have for my
own self chosen to forgive and to let go of those
who still hold grudges against me up until this day. 

Love,

Myself

In The World You Can't Live Without

 

As all things must surely have to end

The great loves will one day have to part

I know that I am meant for this world

And in my mind as I was floating, far above the clouds

Some children laughed I'd fall for certain
For thinking that I'd live forever

But I knew exactly where I was

And I knew the meaning of it all

And I knew the distance to the sun

And I knew the echo that is love

And I knew the secrets in your spires

And I knew the emptiness of youth

And I knew the solitude of heart

And I knew the murmurs of the soul

And the world is drawn into your hands

And the world is etched upon your heart

And the world so hard to understand

In the world you can't live without

Watching Love Grow, Forever Letting Me Know

 This is why events unnerve me

They find it all, a different story

Notice whom for wheels are turning

Turn again and turn towards this time

All she ask's the strength to hold me

Then again the same old story

Word will travel, oh so quickly

Travel first and lean towards this time.

Oh, I'll break them down, no mercy shown

Heaven knows, it's got to be this time

Watching her, these things she said

The times she cried

Too frail to wake this time.

Oh, I'll break them down, no mercy shown

Heaven knows, it's got to be this time

Avenues all lined with trees

Picture me and then you start watching

Watching forever, forever

Watching love grow, forever

Letting me know, forever.

Love to Lust

Eid

Light Eyed
Flowers on the Porch

Now Night Turns Cold
Dark Hearted
Solstice

dreamer

 he will never see through the blue of your eyes
never take surprise to the far wind or sunset

he isn't made of it - he's a dreamer, he says

then why not dream bigger? i ask

If I Could, I Would

If I could manifest someone to love me 

So I would...

This lonely heart has been waiting for so long.

I almost don't even know what it feels to be human anymore.

No one Knows me but Creator

I'm like a dead battery

Or a flower that's dried out

Even down to the roots

& the very core of me

I am starved

I once thought I was a seed to something great

But some days I feel as a rotten fruit

Doomed to be cut down

Incapable of change

& Never able to finish anything I have ever started in my life.

For how can you learn to finish anything in life

When you never learned how to begin?