Once I was 30 years old...

 

Once I was 30 years old...

Once, I was seven years old, my mama told me
"Go make yourself some friends, or you'll be lonely"
Once, I was seven years old

It was a big-big world, but we thought we were bigger
Pushing each other to the limits, we were learning quicker
By 11, smoking herb and drinking burning liquor
Never rich, so we were out to make that steady figure

Once, I was 11 years old, my daddy told me
"Go get yourself a wife, or you'll be lonely"
Once, I was 11 years old

I always had that dream like my daddy before me
So I started writing songs, I started writing stories
Something about the glory just always seemed to bore me
'Cause only those I really love will ever really know me

Once, I was 20 years old, my story got told
Before the morning sun, when life was lonely
Once, I was 20 years old
(Lukas Graham!)

I only see my goals, I don't believe in failure
'Cause I know the smallest voices, they can make it major
I got my boys with me, at least those in favor
And if we don't meet before I leave, I hope I'll see you later

Once, I was 20 years old, my story got told
I was writing 'bout everything, I saw before me
Once, I was 20 years old

Soon, we'll be 30 years old, our songs have been sold
We've traveled around the world, and we're still roaming
Soon, we'll be 30 years old

I'm still learning about life, my woman brought children for me
So I can sing them all my songs, and I can tell them stories
Most of my boys are with me, some are still out seeking glory
And some I had to leave behind, my brother, I'm still sorry

Soon, I'll be 60 years old, my daddy got 61
Remember life and then your life becomes a better one
I made the man so happy when I wrote a letter once
I hope my children come and visit, once or twice a month

Soon, I'll be 60 years old, will I think the world is cold?
Or will I have a lot of children who can warm me?
Soon, I'll be 60 years old

Soon, I'll be 60 years old, will I think the world is cold?
Or will I have a lot of children who can hold me?
Soon, I'll be 60 years old

Once, I was seven years old, my mama told me
"Go make yourself some friends, or you'll be lonely"
Once, I was seven years old

Once, I was seven years old

6:59 PM cst on Dec 6 2023

Salam

 

What is for others is not always for me, but I can always admire loves beauty from afar, and the willingness and lengths that people go for to be with each other makes me happy. 

Newborn and Reborn

 

Fight for the child inside

The one who deserves to live again.

Not One

No man. No woman. No son. No mother. No father. No brother. No sister. No cousin. No other.

No magic book, no secret diet, no lavish life, no evil eye.

Nothing can save you now.

No one will help you now.

Nothing and no one will be with you now.

Except you yourself, and "I"

Gilded Camel

 

I used to think I was dreaming of a golden camel that I could trust.

When times get tough, I thought I could trust you enough.

 But as time passed, the golden paint started to wear off.

Then I saw your mask for who you really are.

It's Contagious

 

We wear our scarves just like a noose

But not 'cause we want eternal sleep

And though our parts are slightly used

New ones are slave labor you can keep

We're living in a den of thieves

Rummaging for answers in the pages

We're living in a den of thieves

And it's contagious.

Pilot Life

Trust is a finicky thing

Losing it is like breaking glass

You can attempt to put back the pieces

But it's weaker than its former past...

Honesty is a finicky thing

Those who claim to be most honest

Usually are furthest from help

For any man who says he's never lied

Surely is deceiving his own self...

Love is a finicky thing.

It cannot be contained

It scatters like rain

Then dries up again.

Forgiveness is a wonderful thing.

It accepts humans are prone to sin

It's given for nothing in return...

And allows for real life to begin.

Awakened Woman

 the little girl lives no more

awakens the divine woman

i give up on pleasing men

instead, i'm pleasing myself

Swiftly

swiftly, i must say goodbye

i know a flower could never please a bird

for the ones that have wings to fly

have perched upon all the flowers

how could i ever shine from up there?

Stardust

stardust comes and stardust goes
where stars fall, no one knows
you can look at from afar
you can't keep it in a jar
and in a locket, you can't keep
that shining stardust in your sleep

stardust needs no fucking lies
stars just shine, no enterprise
all your money you can keep
can't buy the stardust on your teeth
yeah, you can look all around
won't find the desert from the ground

stardust comes and stardust goes
east or west, where wind it blows
yeah, you can see it from the sky
it's star dust raining 10 miles high
star dust strikes like once or twice
lose your chance, it's gone like night

star dust love you know is free
it falls all over everything
but if you hold it in your hand
it flies away like ocean sand
and trickles back down at your feet
that stardust love is bitter-sweet

2f A / 2f E / G

Friends

a friend to All

is a friend to None

but

a friend to God

is a friend with One

Dreams

 

dreams they come

and dreams they go

for if dreams die

it's then you know

that dreams are only ever dreams

and life is rarely half those things

humanity

the vanity of humanity

is in the riddle

burj khalifa stands 

a half a mile high

built on steel and sticks

but beneath her waste

is burning quicksand.

He Sleeps Not!

He guides whom he wills...

Childlike Glimmer

Don't forget where you came from...

I'm a Lucky Man

 

I hope you understand...

I'm a Lucky Man
With Fire in my Hands

Rendezvous

waiting for the time
that i see you in the fire
getting too loud
the sun is getting to the wire

you fall right behind
deep in self denial
false is the sun
when up there is a sign
(love, it was a sign!)

false as the sun
we do not have the power
came from the ground
never have more desire

sinning while we cry
not a seed to the fire
false as the sun
when up there is a sign
(love, it was a sign!)

// 

now take your flame-lit noose
now with fame, it's hard to find you
if i'm being serious,
i've been to every place...

false as the sun
and never for the thought for it
waiting for the time
i'll be with you forever

false as the sun
and never for the thought of it
now it's hard to find
(love it was a sign!)

now take your gun that wounds
now that you're playing
it's hard to find you
if i'm serious
if i'm being serious for everything...

Deep Blue

the things i often do for you are things not often done for me

the things i seem to give away are things never returned to me

i had a feeling the biggest shark in the water was you

nothing to be afraid of now under that deep blue 

get smart, work hard

the poor, well they do it everyday

blast off, outerspace

guess money really does buy everything

get smart, be a shark

just look at how they do it everyday

jump in, sink your teeth

don't worry dear, you'll learn to love the pain

i had a feeling the biggest shark in the water was you

nothing to be afraid of now under that deep blue 

Ever Since The Day We Met

 

Am I alive or thoughts that drift away?

Does summer come for everyone?

Can humans do what prophets say?

If I die before I learn to speak

Can money pay for all the days I lived awake but half asleep?

Sorrow (2019)

 

The City Turns...

 

Reminder 2.0

 I've got an elastic heart. (Sia)

My Love Is

 

growing up i used to always think

that there was someone out there for me

as god created everyone in pairs

i assumed with time that i would see

but as the light turned into night
through the mirror, 30 years flight
i realized there was no one but me
looking back to set me free

maybe with all my mistakes
i had given up my chance for love
but if i could have a chance
i'd like to meet him in skies above

Ceremony

 

Asabiyyah

 asabiyyah, my last spark

taken by those who divide.

never will i trust by race

but by promise and insides

Hunger Strike

 

I don't mind stealin' bread from the mouths of decadents

But I can't feed on the powerless when my cup's already overfilled

But it's on the table, the fire's cookin'

And they're farmin' babies, while the slaves are all workin'

And it's on the table, their mouths are chokin'

But I'm goin' hungry...

That Whore Babalon!

 

another lover

lost to the life

of that whore babalon

and her bright lights

I never did catch a fish...

 

Meet me there in the morning...

Beneath the feet of the city

Click, you disconnect from me

Click, when you go to take your century

Telephone booth between us

There are no walls between us

Only these words and the green grass

And in the distance, I am your tourist

(Meet me there in the morning)

Beaucoop fishin'

(Well, I've never fished here,

I never did catch a fish...)

... I need sugar ...

I need sugar

Why don't you believe?

 Believe in your own God?

Just dance

Just dance
Gonna be okay
Just dance
Spin that record babe...

Second Chances

 I cry because the giver of second chances,

Never ceases in giving a third or a fourth.

Not even a 5th or a 6th would he deny if I asked.

Do you think then, that a 7th or an 8th is beside him?

For a ninth or a tenth would not even phase him

That is the One who has Infinite Understanding

And Continues As long as you Return back to Him